jac’s Neighborhood

Gotta be bigger on productivity these days!
Now on a totally random note, I have to get a lipstick from Makeup Store in this exact font color. ;)

Feelings that have built up in your heart won't disappear if you leave them alone.
You can't get rid of them, but you have to let them go.
I want to rearrange things and keep only the good memories,
And then move forward again.
~ Hataraki Man

Beyond the work grind
Endless coffee and hand moisturizer
I want to stop and take a breather
A deep, long, silent break
I've gone too far, gone too far
Making what's not what is now
Will I regret
Can I move
As I wonder my purpose
Can I stop
Do I dare
Shall I wait
It matters, it really does
Don't want to run after the wind

恩
what some people have and others lack
gratitude -- a big virtue
makes the receiver humble and giver glad
a simple yet powerful "thank you"
can create a happier world

I read yesterday's URBAN and found out for the first time what a lariat is. It was interesting to me as I didn't know that was the jewelry I spotted so often on actor Kim John Hoon in K-drama Goong:

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I know the color saturation in the above picture is way off mark as my prince looked so sallow, but I am going to have that same hair color as him come tomorrow morning as I attempt to dye my own hair with a $13 hair coloring kit from Guardian Pharmacy.

I hope people will not remember my faults as I cover people's transgressions towards me with forgetfulness. If only I can channel forgetfulness however I want to!

My friend is getting married mid June. Another living near London has her boyfriend ready to ask her hand in marriage anytime, as they have already gotten a house. Most of the others I know have stable relationships. Why oh why is the notion of being taken so foreign to me these years? I've even stopped mulling over it! Enough of gripes, ranting, and all those me-stories. I just want to lose that me-complex and get on with living and loving, i.e. less of myself and more of others.

I am thankful that I have such a nice bunch of colleagues to work with. They're amicable, down-to-earth, and totally different from the sort who 'dabbles' in office politics just to climb a rung higher than the next person. I will cherish them everyday!

Last Saturday was the grand opening of our skincare brand's seventh outlet and to be given the task of manning the reception and overseeing buffet arrangements brought back memories of my time at a PR-cum-events agency. I also helped receive the congratulatory flower stands from well-wishers. Or are they called 'standing ovations'? Or 'flower sprays'? Can you tell the real flowers from the artificial ones from the pictures below?

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Even sans the ribbon-cutting and lion dance performance that are common in Singapore to mark a business' auspicious start, it was nice, intimate affair that we enjoyed. Our boss treated us to a post-opening break at a cafe and we discussed more about our upcoming sales party performance. There's going to be a lot of hilarious gender-reversal roles and hips gyrating so characteristic of Indian dances! I'm going to act as a male. Can hardly wait.

At almost $2 a pop, Xenical works like a dream. I am looking forward to actual weight loss. Putting on a pair of old white capri pants made me realize just how much I've tipped the scales. That comfy pair of Griodano pants that used to hang low on my hips now takes me much sucking in of tummy to button and zip. Gotta banish weight woe soon!

And I found da hairstyle I want from this website www.rasysa.com that features a gazillion hairstyles:

Hair 1

Hair 2

Hair 3

I go through the hours tapping away on my keyboard submitting assignments fulfilling obligations and I have no complaints toward my job. I love it because I love writing and no other will do. But hollowness inside is what I feel a numbing feeling in my mind. What is peace? I want a life unlike such as mine a real life unlike such as mine I walk through my days feeling empty, angry, nothing.

Busy, busy, busy! It prompts the question -- what is truly important? I don't want to live like this. What is my resolution?

STRAIGHTEN UP!

This I will attempt to do.

Life is not about me.

Recently, I have been hearing more swear words than before. And them coming out of my mouth too. When people say who you mix with is important, they aren't lying. You become like those you spend lots of time with.

These weeks, my company will be preparing for a friendly inter-department competition in mid-June. Each department is to compete in a seven-minute performance to showcase the members' talents, the teams' camaraderie, and the department heads' leadership qualities. We, the Marcom team, will be doing a musical (read: spoof) of a Chinese classical love story Liang Zhu infused with Indian love dances. It is written largely as a comedy, meant to elicit laughter from our audience. Details later.

Two more days before the paycheck rolls in. Delicious! I'll spend $250 on that Samsung Soul and a 2GB memory card. I'll also set aside $200 (at most) to straighten my unruly locks and trim it. Instant ramen is really yummy, especially the below in that particular flavor:

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Is it one of those silent spells again?